to call it, it looks like she is sort of moving in a vat of-ee somehow. there is, there is a rhythm to it, an up temp po, and down tempo, an undualation to it. a sense of, she is sort of wa, did somebody say to me, hate to see you leave but love to watch you go. it takes a tremendous amount of energy to be somebody who is slightly different than yourself. and i discovered what she was, to transmit that kind of energy openness, availability, to be what everybody wants you to be isn't human. it's a kind of superpower. and it takes a lot of energy to source that. and to put it out into the world. and some days, you know, she says herself, you know, what's it like to be an icon. she says on the days when you feel lonely, tired and unlovable, it is very difficult. it's a reason to not get out of bedment because it's so hard to exist for other people.